Today is the 7th of June 2016. Today in history I was born. Today I did nothing.
It’s my birthday today and I didn’t turn 25. yesterday I found myself repeating it over and over its “24 not 25” (for some reason my brain wanted to skip a year, I had to do the maths to be double sure)
There are people who take birthdays seriously and there are people who don’t. I truly do not know where I belong, all I know is I have never done nothing on my birthday, NEVER, not even in boarding school. Even when I have nothing planned something always ends up happening somehow.
Today however nothing happened. Nothing!!! I had invited my friend over hoping that her presence would make me do something, but by the time I was done taking my bath she was asleep so I did the only logical thing (sleep too). My phone was switched off for the most part of the day so I got no calls and didn’t reply messages till evening.
The surprising part is I wasn’t upset or bothered, I tried to make a mental note of how far I’ve come from last year I was really hoping I’d discover something grand/ profound and feel energized but I realized that somehow I slept through a lot of things this past year.
I didn’t even realize 24 was here till it hit me in the face. In the original plan of my life (the one I drafted) 23 was the age for a lot of things to happen, it was the planned age to tie up the loose ends of my life and start living proper. I had pushed back some activities for “when i’m 23” and not even one of those things happened not ONE (seriously not even the let your makeup be on fleek part) . The loose ends are stuck in disorganized knots and there is nothing to tie. (other unplanned things did happen though)
A part of me really wishes to show some kind of emotion (anger, disappointment) at myself or and at God, I find myself just emotionless not upset not excited just moving with the flow kind of like a paper boat on a stream getting wet but flowing with the current.
I know I’m rambling, but hey it’s my birthday I’ll ramble if I want to.
Girl, you are hilarious 😃 If you invite me next year, I guarantee that something will happen. Its always refreshing to read your posts even when you’re just fooling around. And btw, I can totally relate with the unexpected stuff happening. It’s almost as if God is saying, “Don’t worry about the story-I’m writing it. You just play your part and enjoy the ride”😊 Happy birthday again woman. I hope your new year is increasingly more beautiful.
Thanks dear, I’ll make a mental note to invite you next year.
Ok now, I really love the way you think…
Nope, I think what I love is the manner you express your thoughts!
Good job here also
Thank you. I’d love to hear the story of how you stumbled on the blog.
Happy belated birthday Doyin. May God bless you